Ring-a-ding-ding

The clock ticks away, the bell chimes.
Time has ran away.

As much as I'm worried, I cling onto the cross.

His Promises

His Promises
(captured in Gold Coast)

God’s goodness.

I cannot testify and comprehend God’s love for us. It is greater than the highest ocean, deeper and wider than what you feel you deserve.

Who am I, that you should save me? Who am I, that you would rescue me? I’ll admit, I’m not the perfect child of God whom reads the bible 24/7, praying and fasting daily for the nation. I’m not. I believe that whatever that I’ve gone through and experienced- wasn’t by the work of my hands. It has always been His hands.

Today, I humble myself and give all glory to God.

Each time I ask myself how I’ve come far, I can only say grace. It has always been God’s grace carrying me through. Each and every time.

Today was no exception. His goodness carried me through. He sent friends to encourage and help, while Him being present in every moment. Securing your first job is never easy. Doubts of whether you’ll make the cut for an interview, not even thinking of whether you’ll ace the interview. Nervousness sinks in, you’re worried. What questions would they ask? Is it a group interview? A face to face interview? How many rounds are there? How many interviewers are there? Will I meet their criteria?

Thank goodness the recruiting process was extremely fast. My doubtful heart became a joyful one :) On the same day, I got the goosebumps after reading the bible.

Ecclesiates 3:1-11

A Time for Everything

3 There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

²     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
³     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
⁴     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
⁵     a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
⁶     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
⁷     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
⁸     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

⁹ What do workers gain from their toil? ¹⁰ I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. ¹¹ He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet^[a] no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end.

From beginning to end, it was nothing short of grace. Thank you Jesus, for sailing with me through the storms this past year. It was nothing short of melodrama, but You remained still. Thank You for your promises to me.

And like the flood, His mercies reigns. Amazing love, amazing grace.

Make up Haul

Finally back in Singapore after my grad trip to Korea! I have no idea where my money went to, but I'm definitely trying to recollect it. My face better be worth a million bucks!

Laneige's Multi Cleanser

too cool for school's bb cream lunch box in #1 

20 pieces Etude House's Aloe mask

Skin Food's Black Sugar Mask

Etude House's CC cream in Silky

Clio's Eyeliner and a mascara

2 bottles of Etude's Collagen Moistfull

Etude House's Foundation Brush

Iope's bio essence intensive conditioning

The entire set (yup)

Clio's eyebrow mascara

Clio's Art Blusher in #5, Orange Peach 

20 pieces of Etude's Pearl Face Mask

6 sets of Tony Moly's Foot Peeling Mask

Clio's UV Mist with CC

Clio's Sunblock

Tony Moly's Tomatox Whitening Mask

More Laneige- Water Bank Essence

Laneige Water Sleeping Pack

Laneige Perfect Pore Cleansing Oil

It's not.. a lot! (imo!)

Final Stretch

For many others, it's a long journey to get your degree. I'm just über thankful for the shorter race, and the shorter distance to reach the finish line. 

IT'S THE LAST SEMESTER, AND I'M GONNA GRADUATE! 

Even though sometimes stress level always reach to a breaking point, I'm glad that I have not toppled. It's never a easy road, just thankful for everyone who has helped me along the way. Boy, I'm almost there! 2 more weeks to go! 

As for my issues in life which has been put on hold- I feel I've been ministered with past weeks' sermons where they somehow seem to relate to one another, helping me to move forward. I am much better :') 

On the side note, I'm ecstatic that after my crazy papers, I'm going to do what I enjoy most- travelling! Seriously excited, over the moon. I need to keep my eyes on the prize, on the prize, on the prize! Gonna ace the papers even though sometimes I feel clueless on what I've just studied! 

Oh yeah, I havent' sent my résumé out yet.

"It's a crazy life, but it's our life!" - Kate Gosselin

Rolling Eyes

Update

I'm admitting that I've been half-assed, highly unmotivated and being unfairly cranky lately.

I guess, the first quarter of 2013 really kicked me. Right in the face.
I've always thought that I'm strong as steel, and nothing (almost) would shake me apart. I mean- how big of a shit hole can your throw yourself into? Pardon my language.

Well, things do. When the closest ones suffers to a loss of a loved one and the psychological effects of it. I'm heartbroken. And that's how things start to spiral down.

Escapism, giving an attitude- I turn to.
Am I losing my joy? What's making me happy right now? Am I happy? Or am I just putting a front, a facade. And because of this unhappiness boiling within me, I don't talk. I just don't want to talk.

And then your friend asks you what wrong did she do to you because you're not talking to her. Nothing, I said. I'm just facing issues and it's nothing about you. Case closed. I still dont want to talk because I don't want to. She asks again. Girl, stop giving me drama cause I definitely don't need it right now. Am I supposed to put a happy front and smile like I've won a million dollars everyday?

Highly irritable, that is me. I'm bitter, mean, and dry to the bones.
Fusilli, on a downward spiral. Things better look up.
That is me, and I hope there's sunlight soon.

1st Quarter

It's only the beginning of the year, I'm struggling to keep afloat. Just when I feel that last year was one of the worst years I've ever experienced- 2013 seems no easy feat too. 

But I'm clinging on to the Rock. 

Hope

My heart is heavy, lost and worried.

Habakkuk 3:17-18

Though the fig tree does not bud
and there are no grapes on the vines, 
though the olive crop fails 
and the fields produce no food, 
though there are no sheep in the pen
and no cattle in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the Lord, 
I will be joyful in God my Savior. 

The Sovereign Lord is my strength;
he makes my feet like the feet of a deer, 
he enables me to tread on the heights. 

Hello 2013 (finally!)

It's been way backlogged, and it's been stressful, crazy, tiring period for year 2013 so far. 

Thank you Jesus for seeing me though 2012! 

1. I've cleared my second semester mods, by God's grace!
   Even though it wasn't fantabulous, it definitely surpassed my expectations! So so so so so so glad that.. part of my birthday wish came true! I'm finally on my last semester, and gonna join the workforce real soon!
   
2. I'm 21 in 2012, 2013, 2014... 2050.
   Yes I am.
   I'm exceptionally thankful for everyone who have contributed in my life! Thank you for you love!
   

With my lovely grandma and my parents

Friends for the day! (Heehee!)
The girls whom keep chasing me to get this party done!

Sophia and Ethan (Missing Andre)

Poly clique

And then the PL girls

And the birthday cake

And the Hongkeetongs

UJC,

BFC

and the other important people in mah life

Uni friends

and finally mah babes!

Of course, I forgot to thank you speech (the next one would most probably be at my wedding?)

So, to all my friends, family, and to the Father above- thank you for making me, me. 

Next up, resolutions for 2013! 

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Celebrating my 21st!

best grandma

my pillars of strength, my fan club, my supporters

Missing You

My heart aches, but we know he's in a better place. Love you lots, Ah Gong.